There is always hope
After eight years in the Marines, Jacob Lorde returns to Blessings, Georgia, with no plans other than to hole up in his empty house and heal what’s left of his soul. But with a charming next door neighbor and a town full of friendly people, keeping to himself is easier said than done.
As long as you can come home
Laurel Payne understands far too well what Jake is going through, after witnessing her late husband experience similar problems. She’s in no hurry to jump into another relationship with a complicated guy, but their attraction is undeniable—and perhaps exactly what both of them need.
SHARON SALA has over ninety-five books in print and has published in five different genres. She is a seventime RITA finalist, four-time Career Achievement winner from RT Book Reviews, and five-time winner of the National Reader’s Choice Award. Writing changed her life, her world, and her fate. She lives in Norman, Oklahoma.
Thomas Wolfe
once wrote, “You can never go home
again.” Jacob Lorde never took the word of a stranger. He was on the way home,
marking the passing of every mile with a war-weary soul. He needed a place to
heal and Blessings, Georgia, the place where he grew up, was calling him.
He’d come back briefly over a year
ago to bury his father, and the calm and peace of the place had stayed with him
long after he’d returned to his unit. Only a couple of months later, an IED on
one patrol too many earned him a long stint in the hospital and brought his
time with the army to an end.
Now he was coming home to try and
bury the soldier he’d been.
He wanted to be done with war.
He needed peace.
He needed the emotional security
that comes with knowing where he belonged.
He needed that like he needed air
to breathe, so when the Greyhound bus in which he was riding came around the
curve and he saw the city-limit sign of Blessings gleaming in the early morning
sunlight, his eyes blurred with sudden tears. He took the sunglasses from the
pocket of his uniform and slipped them on, then held his breath as the bus began
to stop.
The brakes squeaked. They needed
oil.
Jake stood slowly, easing the
stiffness in a still-healing leg, walked down the aisle, and then out into a
sweet Georgia morning. He took a deep breath, smelling pine trees on the
mountains around him and the scent of smoke from someone’s fireplace.
He was home.
The driver pulled his duffel bag
from the luggage rack beneath the bus, shook his hand, and got back on board.
The rest of the trip home was on Jake.
***
Ruby Dye had just opened The
Curl Up and Dye when the Greyhound bus rolled through Blessings, belching black
smoke from the exhaust. Because the bus came through Blessings on a regular
basis, she never paid it any attention, but today it began slowing down. When
it stopped, she moved closer to the window, waiting to see who got off, but the
only person she saw was the driver who circled the bus to remove luggage from
the carrier beneath.
A few moments later, the bus drove
away in a small cloud of the same black smoke. It was then Ruby saw the man in uniform
reaching down to get his duffel bag. From this distance she couldn’t tell who
it was, but he was limping slightly as he walked away.
“Welcome home, soldier,” she said
softly, and then went back to work.
***
Jake
paused on the sidewalk and took a deep breath as the early morning air filled
his lungs. Enveloped by the silence, he exhaled slowly as the weariness of the
bus ride fell away. Shifting the duffel bag to rest easier on his shoulder, he
headed south. Unless he caught a ride somewhere between here and home, he had a
six-mile hike ahead of him, but after sitting for so long, he didn’t care.
As he walked
through town, it was somewhat comforting to see everything pretty much looked
the same. Granny’s Country Kitchen still appeared to be the main place to eat.
He thought about stopping there for breakfast, but food wasn’t as urgent a need
as it was to see home.
He continued
south down Main, noticing one thing had changed. The old barbershop was closed.
There was a sign in the window that read: Haircuts Available at The Curl Up and
Dye. He smiled, remembering Ruby Dye and the girls at her shop.
When he
noticed a school bus heading out of town, he guessed the driver was beginning
his route and thought of all the boys and girls hurrying around in their homes
right now, getting ready for school, still innocent of what life could do to
their dreams.
Traffic was picking up by the time
he reached Ralph’s, the small quick stop at the edge of town. He’d already had
the utilities turned on at the house a month earlier, had cable set up so he’d
have television service, and had the house cleaned at that time as well. But
there wasn’t any food, and picking up a few things here would be enough to tide
him over while he settled in. The bell over the doorway jingled as he walked
in, which made everyone in the store turn and look.
Jake knew the army uniform he was
wearing and the military duffel bag marked him as a vet and wondered if there
was anyone inside who might give him a ride.
Ralph Sinclair, who had always
reminded Jake of Santa Claus because of his white hair and beard, was behind
the counter. “Jake! I heard you might be coming home. It’s good to see you!”
“Hi, Ralph. It’s good to be here,”
Jake said.
He set his duffel bag against the
counter, picked up a small shopping basket, and started moving down the aisles.
He was reaching for a squeeze bottle of mustard when he heard someone call out
his name. When he turned to look and saw Truman Slade standing at the end of
the aisle, the first thought that went through his head was, Well, hell.
Probably the only enemy he had in the entire state, and he was not only out of
prison, but back in Blessings. A muscle jerked in his jaw as he forced himself
not to react.
***
Truman Slade was two hundred
and twenty-three pounds of pure mean, exacerbated by the years he’d spent in
prison thanks to Jake Lorde’s testimony against him. Truman didn’t give a damn
that all of that had happened when Jake was still in high school. All he knew
was the kid’s statement at his trial sent him to prison for eight years. The
years and Truman’s lifestyle had not been kind to him. Even when he was young,
his short legs and big, round face, plus a distinct underbite, had given him a
bulldog look. Now he had the big belly to go with it.
The moment he’d seen Jake Lorde
walk in the door, his first thought had been time for payback.
He walked up to where Jake was standing, pushed himself into Jake’s personal
space, and waited for him to react. He so wanted to whip his ass.
To Truman’s
dismay, Jake didn’t acknowledge his presence. Instead, he calmly reached over
Truman’s head for a loaf of bread, which accentuated how short Truman really
was, and how tall Jake had grown. As he did, his elbow grazed the tip of
Truman’s nose, which made Truman flinch. Jake was acting as if Truman were
invisible. When he turned around and moved a few steps down and put a box of
granola in the basket with the bread and mustard, Truman followed.
“Still afraid
of your own shadow?” Truman whispered, then made a gun with his hand and
pointed it at Jake.
Jake stared
at Truman until he flushed a dark, angry red and shoved both hands in his
pockets. Jake walked back to his duffel bag, pulled a big handgun from a side
pocket, gave Truman another look, and then slapped it down on the counter in
front of Ralph.
“Hey, Ralph, do you know where I
could get ammo for this?”
Truman heard
Ralph talking, but he couldn’t focus on the words, thinking of that look Jake
had given him. It was just beginning to dawn on Truman that war had changed
Jake Lorde in a dangerous way. By the time he tuned back in on what was being
said, Jake had shoved the handgun back into his bag and was at the deli,
waiting to get some lunch meat and cheese sliced to take home.
Truman was leaning against the
counter with a smirk on his face, and when Jake approached with his shopping
basket to pay, Truman purposefully slid his shoe in front of Jake, intending to
force him to step aside. Instead, Jake took the next step right on top of
Truman’s shoe and then stopped.
Truman inhaled sharply. The
bastard was standing on his foot! He started to push Jake off, and then
something told him not to lay a hand on the man. By his own actions, he was
momentarily pinned to the floor.
Jake paid, picked up the
groceries, shouldered his duffel bag, and left the store.
Truman groaned beneath his breath
when the pressure on his foot was released and then hobbled out the door and
drove toward town. He needed to put distance between him and Jake Lorde to
recoup his swagger.
As for Jake, his head was pounding
as he walked out of the store. The blood raced through his veins the same way
it had done at the end of a deadly exchange of gunfire. Even though the morning
air was cool, he could almost feel the desert heat. Despite his inability to
focus, instinct kept him moving toward home.
***
Laurel Payne was on her way
into Blessings to an early morning cleaning job. She would have to drop her
daughter, Bonnie, off at a friend’s house in town until it was time for them to
walk to school. There were always difficulties arising from being a single
parent, and having good friends to help her out like this made her life a
little easier.
She was less than a mile from town
when she saw the soldier walking on the side of the road. Her heart skipped a
beat. The sight of a man in uniform was still a painful reminder of her own
husband, Adam, who’d come home from a war without a single wound and then shot
and killed himself only a few months later.
As for the traveler, she knew who
he was even before she got close enough to see his face. She knew because she’d
been the one who’d cleaned his father’s house weeks earlier. He was not a
stranger. He was a few years older, but she’d known him all her life.
When she
passed him, the first thing she thought was that the neighborly thing to do
would be to give him a ride home, but she didn’t want to reawaken the sleeping
demons in her life by befriending anyone who reminded her of Adam. Then she
glanced in the rearview mirror, saw the slight limp in his stride, and her heart
sank. Despite her reservations about getting involved, she hit the brakes.
“Mommy, what are we doing?” Bonnie
asked, as Laurel made a U-turn in the road.
“I’m going to give Mr. Lorde a
ride home,” she said.
Bonnie frowned. “But Mr. Lorde
went to heaven already. Did he come back?”
Laurel sighed. “No, honey. That
man we just passed is his son.”
“Oh,” Bonnie said, but her
curiosity was piqued.
***
Jake saw the old pickup coming
toward him but paid it little mind because it was going the wrong way to do him
any good. When it came closer, he noticed a young woman and a child inside, but
didn’t recognize them. He nodded politely as they passed and kept on walking.
When he was a little farther down
the road, he heard the vehicle braking, then turning around, and his first
instinct was to brace for another confrontation. When the pickup caught up with
him and stopped, he didn’t know what to expect.
Laurel rolled
down the window and managed a brief smile.
“Jake Lorde?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m Laurel Payne, your neighbor
down the road. Get in and I’ll take you home.”
Jake breathed an easy sigh of
relief. “Thanks,” he said, and put his things in the truck bed. He saw the
little girl in the backseat as he opened the door and winked at her as he got
in.
Bonnie was
immediately charmed, partly because he reminded her of her father, whom she
missed, and partly because he belonged to Mr. Lorde, whom she had adored.
Laurel waited until he settled
before she accelerated.
“Welcome home,” she said shyly,
and kept her eyes on the road.
“Thank you,”
Jake said, trying to figure out who she was, and then it hit him. “You were
Laurel Joyner, right?”
She nodded.
“You said
it’s Payne now. By any chance did you marry Adam Payne? I knew him in high
school.”
“Yes, I did,”
she said.
“My daddy is
dead,” Bonnie announced.
Laurel sighed. “That’s my
daughter, Bonnie. She’s a first-grader this year.”
“Hello, Bonnie. I’m sorry about
your daddy, and I’m sorry for your loss,” he told Laurel.
“Thank you,” Laurel said, but when
she wasn’t forthcoming with any further information, Jake didn’t push the
issue.
A few minutes later they drove up
on the mailbox at the end of his driveway. Laurel slowed down, and when she
turned off the road and headed up the driveway, the ruts were so deep that they
bounced in the seats all the way to the house.
“Sorry,” she said.
“Looks like you just pointed out
the first repair I need to put on my list,” Jake said.
She pulled up to the fence
surrounding the yard, put the truck in park, and started to get out.
“No, don’t get out. I can get it
all,” Jake said. “I really appreciate the ride and hope I didn’t make you late
to wherever you were going.”
“We’re fine with the time,” Laurel
said. “Have a nice day, and again, welcome home.”
“Thank you,” Jake said.
Laurel waited while he gathered all
of his things from the back of her truck and then headed for the front door. As
soon as he was clear of her truck, she began backing up to turn around.
When Jake turned to watch her
hasty exit, he saw her little girl on her knees in the backseat watching him.
She waved.
He waved back and then they were
gone and he had no other excuses to delay the inevitable. He reached above the
door for the key, unlocked it, and went inside. He set his duffel bag against
the wall and then headed to the kitchen with the groceries.
His
footsteps echoed on the old hardwood floors, and despite the cleaning, the
rooms smelled musty. He set the groceries on the counter and then opened the
two windows in the kitchen to start airing the house. The house might get
chilly, but he was choosing fresh air rather than airless, musty rooms.
Opening the
cabinet doors as he put up food was like turning back time. His mother’s dishes
were still stacked in the same places they had been when he was growing up. A
couple of coffee cups were missing, probably broken from years of use. When he
opened a drawer to the left of the sink and found the notepads and pens they’d
used to make lists and saw his father’s writing on the top page of one pad, a
moment of anger swept over him. His father’s grocery list was still here, but
he wasn’t.
He picked up
the one on top to begin a new list of things he was going to need, then took it
with him as he walked through the rooms, making notes of what he needed to buy.
He knew for sure he needed toilet
paper, bath powder, and toothpaste for the bathroom. Laundry soap, stain
remover, and cleaning supplies for the utility room. Light bulbs for the house,
and everything it took to restock a kitchen.
He was passing a window when he
saw the school bus go by the house. He glanced at the clock and smiled. Fifteen
minutes to eight—-the same time he’d always caught the bus. He continued
through the house, checking off things needing repairs. The showerhead was
leaking and he’d noticed loose boards on the front porch when he’d stepped on
it.
Several times he thought he heard
footsteps in the house and would turn, expecting to see his father walk into
the room with a big welcome-home grin on his face, and then remember. He made a
note to get a Wi-Fi connection at the house and to set up his email.
It was moving toward noon when he
finally closed all of the windows and turned on the central heat to warm up the
house, then grabbed the keys to his dad’s pickup from a small nail inside one
of the upper cabinets and headed toward the barn. It’s where he’d left the
truck after the funeral.
A trio of pigeons roosting in the
rafters flew off when he entered. The red Chevrolet truck was a little dusty
but otherwise intact. Jake unlocked it with the remote and then looked inside.
It was just as he’d left it. He backtracked to the last granary where he’d
hidden the battery and put it back in the vehicle. He checked the oil, the
transmission fluid, and the air pressure in the tires before he was satisfied,
then started it up and drove it to the house and parked beneath the carport.
He was back in the kitchen making
a sandwich when he thought of Laurel Payne again and wondered where she’d been
going so early, then wondered what she did for a living. It had to be tough
being a single parent.
He sat down in the living room to
eat and turned on the television to catch local news, only to realize he didn’t
recognize any of the journalists reporting. So some things had changed after
all.
The food he’d made was tasteless,
but his hunger had been satisfied, and that was all that mattered. He was
thinking about going into town and setting up his banking, then checking in
with the post office to let them know he was home and to resume delivery.
But then he fell asleep and went
back to war.
The explosion from the IED
sounded like the end of the world, and when Jake came to, he thought he was
dead. The pain from his wounds had yet to register, and he was trying
desperately to stand. He couldn’t hear, he couldn’t see for the smoke and dust,
and he couldn’t feel his legs. This was a blistering
disappointment. He thought heaven would be prettier than this.
Someone yelled at him. DeSosa! He was telling him not to
die, but the way he felt, he wasn’t making any promises. It wasn’t until the
ground began vibrating beneath him and the air was
spinning above his head that he started yelling for help. That was a chopper,
and he didn’t want to be left behind.
Jake woke up in a sweat, his heart
pounding and tears in his eyes.
“Son of a… Ah, God,” he muttered,
and bolted off the sofa as if he’d been launched, trying to get as far away
from the dream as possible.
He yanked the front door open and
strode onto the porch, taking in the fresh air in gulps. The sweat on his
forehead began to cool as the tears dried on his cheeks, and he began to pace.
The loose boards squeaked, reminding him of a job still undone. Furious from
the dream and frustrated because the war still haunted his life, he went
straight to the toolshed for a hammer and nails, then back to the house.
Every time the hammer made contact
with a nail, it took everything he had not to duck, because it sounded like
gunshots. He was so focused on getting rid of the nightmare that he didn’t see
Laurel Payne driving home, but she saw him.
***
Laurel was
already exhausted and she still had four loads of laundry to do and supper to
cook for her and Bonnie. She’d actually forgotten about seeing Jacob Lorde this
morning until she drove past the house and saw him on his hands and knees on
the porch. She saw the hammer in his hand and remembered the loose boards when
she’d been there last month to clean the house. It was obvious he wasn’t
wasting any time putting it to rights.
But when she consciously noticed
how broad his shoulders were, she looked away. She didn’t care what he looked
like. He didn’t matter in her world and never would. She had a daughter to
raise, and she wanted nothing to do with another war vet.
Her head was hurting by the time
she got home, and climbing those steep steps into their double-wide trailer
seemed like insult adding to her injury. Once inside, she breathed a sigh of
relief at being in her own home, not someone else’s, and headed for her
bedroom.
The first thing she did was take
down her hair. It was thick and a slightly curly auburn that hung well below
her shoulders, and sometimes having it up all day gave her a headache. As soon
as it was down, the release of tension in her body was palpable. She quickly
changed her clothes and got to work.
By the time the school bus stopped
to let Bonnie off, Laurel was taking the last batch of cookies from the oven.
She had the third load of clothes in the washing machine, a load in the dryer,
and vegetable soup simmered on the back burner.
The sound of
Bonnie’s footsteps coming up the steps of their trailer was Laurel’s signal for
an emotional shift. Whatever was bothering her did not belong on her little
girl’s radar. She turned toward the door with a smile. Seconds later, Bonnie
came inside in a rush, talking nonstop.
“Mama, I got
a happy face on my new words, and Lewis threw up on my shoe at lunch. Mrs.
Hamilton washed it off but it still smells funny. I think it got on my sock,
too. Milly was mean to me at recess but I told her she was acting like a baby.
Then she cried, which proved I was right. Can I have a cookie? How long till
supper?”
Laurel
grinned. “Come
here and give me a kiss. I missed you today.”
Bonnie threw
her arms around her mother’s neck and kissed Laurel’s cheek as she reached for
a cookie.
Laurel
grinned when she saw the second cookie in Laurel’s other hand and stopped her
long enough to get the stinky tennis shoes and socks off Laurel’s feet.
“Change out of
your school clothes before you go feed Lavonne, and put on socks with your old
shoes. It’s chilly out today.”
“I will,”
Bonnie said. “Can Lavonne have a cookie, too?”
“No. Chickens
don’t need to eat sugar. Just her regular feed, okay?”
“Okay, Mama,”
Bonnie said, and ran barefoot to her room, her little feet making splat, splat
sounds as she went.
In minutes she was out the back
door and running toward the little chicken coop. Her daddy had built it for
Lavonne, and she thought of him every time she went to feed her pet, but it was
getting harder to remember what he looked like. That scared her a little, but
she was afraid to talk to Mama about it. She heard Mama crying sometimes at
night. It was hard being Mama’s big girl when she still felt little and scared.
When she
unlocked the gate to the fence around the coop and Lavonne came running, it
made the sad thoughts go away. Lavonne was her buddy and had the prettiest
black feathers ever. Mama said she was from a family of chickens called
Australorps, but Bonnie disagreed. Lavonne was from the family of Paynes.
The chicken’s
constant clucks sounded a lot like Bonnie’s chatter as Bonnie scooped up feed
and put it in the feeder inside the coop. When she left the chicken yard to get
fresh water, Lavonne was right beside her, clucking and occasionally pausing to
peck the ground.
“What was
that?” Bonnie asked. “Did you get a bug? Good job!” Then she suddenly squatted
and pointed her finger in the grass. “Oooh, look, Lavonne, there’s another
one!”
Lavonne was
on it in seconds, then wandered off a few feet while Bonnie carried fresh water
back to the coop and filled the watering station. As soon as she was through
with all that, she pulled a fresh hunk off the bale of straw and loosened it.
She was getting ready to put it in Lavonne’s nest when she saw the egg.
She squealed
and dropped the straw then came out of the chicken coop on the run, screaming,
“Mommy, Mommy.”
When Laurel
heard Bonnie’s scream her heart stopped. She dropped the armload of wet clothes
back into the washer and went out the back door on the run.
“What’s
wrong?” she cried, as Bonnie ran into her arms.
Bonnie held out the egg in two
hands as if it were pure gold.
“Look, Mama, look! Lavonne laid an
egg. Does that mean she’s all grown up now?”
Laurel was so
weak with relief it took a moment to answer.
“Well, my
goodness, I guess it does. Way to go, Lavonne,” Laurel said.
Bonnie
giggled.
“We’re both
growing up, aren’t we, Mama? Here, you take the egg. I’m going to play with
Lavonne some more.”
Laurel sighed
as she watched Bonnie running back to the coop. Yes. Her little girl was
growing up. She turned around to go back to the house, carrying the proof of
Lavonne’s launch into hen-hood, and the farther she went, the angrier she
became at Adam. By the time she reached the back steps, she was crying.
“Oh, Adam,
just look at what you’re missing. Why did you have to go and blow your damn
head off? We need you. Life wasn’t supposed to be like this.”
Dear Reader:
I welcome you to Blessings,
Georgia, the best small town in the South.
No, there aren’t any secrets kept
here, and yes, everybody knows your business, but when bad things happen, good
people come to your rescue.
I grew up in a place like that—-a
place everyone should live in at least once in their lives, but since that’s
not possible, I’m offering the next best thing: stories about that way of
life—-touching stories, funny stories, stories that will break your heart on
one page and heal it on the next.
Count Your Blessings was the novella introducing my readers to the
Georgia landscape.
You and Only You was the first full-length novel set in Blessings. It’s
a story about the faithfulness of friends and family and what it means to be
Southern to the core, as well as being a sweet love story to enjoy.
I’ll Stand By You was the second full-length novel. It’s a story
about how people starting life off on the wrong foot can still find a way to
live happy ever after.
Saving Jake is the next story, the one you’re holding in your hands. It’s a story
that gets to the heart of what matters in life: redemption, forgiveness, and
trust. It’s a story of the times, and yet timeless in its simplicity.
Pick up one of my stories and take
a visit to Blessings with me.
You just might like it enough to
stay.
See you between the pages,
Sharon Sala
SHARON SALA has over ninety-five books in print and has published in five different genres. She is a seventime RITA finalist, four-time Career Achievement winner from RT Book Reviews, and five-time winner of the National Reader’s Choice Award. Writing changed her life, her world, and her fate. She lives in Norman, Oklahoma.
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